Angels Together Forever...

I scrapped this page tonight to honor the memory of both my beloved mother and grandmother. It is also posted on my grandma's page. I found it kind of fitting that these two ladies were always together in life, and they are finally together in the after - life, and at peace.

I am so sad that they are both gone, but so happy that they are at least together. Grandma was so broken - hearted after my mom passed away, I think that is much of caused her decline, so quickly. I know that her heart was broken.

So, now they are together forever, fighting, laughing, and loving eachother and watching out for their beloved children, grandchildren, and the rest of this crazy family.

~Love you both~

The headstone is ordered

The headstone for my mom's grave has been ordered. We were able to make a dedication to Grandma on it as well, since she was not buried. We thought it only fitting that these two feisty women be remembered in death together, as well as in life. It should be about 5 - 6 weeks until it's done. I will have photos of the marker posted once it is done.

It has been a trying past week or so. Grandma's funeral went really nice, but I am glad it's over. I know that they are finally together again and probably arguing over who got more attention, who got more flowers, who service cost more. This how Debbie and Betty were. Bless their hearts.

I still cannot believe they are both gone. It hurts to think about it and is hard to pull up these blogs daily and read the memories and see the pictures, but it's like I keep saying, it's good therapy.

While planning Grandma's service, this picture of my mom, Randy and Grandma was located. It was taken a few years ago at a cousin's wedding. I didn't even know that this picture existed until not too long ago. I cannot believe how vibrant and happy they both looked. These are the types of pictures I like to remember.

Love you both and miss you.

I have been working on updating Mom's blog a little bit. I have been learning how to use Adobe Photoelements 6.0 with the help of a really good friend, who just also happens to be really good at digital scrapbooking and got me into this blogging business.

Here is one of the first pages I have done with one of my favorite photos of Mom. I think this was taken either in 1995, maybe 1996. I am not sure, but I love it. It is one of the best photos I think she had.

So, the past few days have been crazy. Between the Easter holiday, kids and hamily fome with our friends, I have hardly been able to dwell on the events of the past few days. This is a good thing since that that is all I was doing.

Mom's 52nd birthday (or what would have been) is fast approaching and I want to do something special in her honor, but am not sure what. I may put together an album and make one for each of us kids and some of the other family.

We have also got her grave marker ordered and I will be posting pic's of that soon. Thanks to Crystal for taking care of that.

Mom and Grandma - know that I love you and miss you and not a day goes by that I don't miss you both like crazy.

In Loving Memory

They are together forever, finally

Grandma Betty passed away on March 13, 2008. She is finally at peace and finally with mom. She took my mom's passing so hard, we all did, but Grandma took it especially hard. My mom worked for the Little America Hotel in Wyoming as a janitor. Grandma took her jacket everywher with her, to the hospital, to Pam's, everywhere. She would not let it out of her sight.

Well, they are finally together again and probably fighting. which is only right.

I cannot begin to put into words how much I miss the both of you. The two most important women in my life are now gone. As I sit hear crying and missing them both more than I can stand, I find some solace in the fact that you are together again.

Grandma would say after my mom died, that Debbie was not dead, but now truly alive. There are times that I remember this and try to keep this in mind. Times like now, when I hurt so much inside, that I could cry for the rest of my life. Times that I cannot believe that God took both of them from me. Sometimes I almost forget that mom is gone, which is crazy, I know. It's like she has been out of town for five months and just forgot to call me. I never knew I could miss someone so much.

Since Grandma has died, all of the old emotions of my mom's death have been re-newed. All of the pain and suffering I have dealt with, are back. All of the emotions that I thought I had dealt with are born again. I know I will get thru this, but it will take time, lots and lots of time. And how much, I don't know.

Grandma and Mom - where ever you are right now, please watch over me and the rest of the family that are mourning your losses tonight and every night. Please mend my broken heart and help me to stay strong. Some days I wish I could have gone right along with you, but I could not. I am here to raise my family and my daughters that need me, but don't forget that I need you too. I am so broken in half right now, that I need all of the strength I can get. I miss you both soooo much. It hurts so much that you are both gone. I love you both and miss you more than even I can stand. Stay with me and keep me strong.

Janda

Recently I found some more pictures and wanted to share them. One of them is really old but also has my Grandma Betty in it. She is dying of terminal cancer and is only expected to live another week or two. It is the hardest thing to see, watching one of the most vibrant and feisty women I have ever known, become this half - alive person.

My one saving grace is knowing that my mom is on the other side of Heaven's gates watching and waiting for her. She won't be in this world suffering with the pain and hardships anymore. She will be free, like her daughter.

This blog is dedicated to anyone who has ever lost a loved one, whoever it may be. I have lost (and am losing) two of the most loving, wonderful and caring women in my life. It is hard and horrible, but I know I will see them both again someday, not soon enough, but someday.

Grandma and Mom, please save me a spot until my time comes.

~Janda~

I Found Some More Photos